Chiari Stages of Grief: Bargaining

Now, as the surgery date looms before me, I find that I am in the bargaining stage.

Maybe I don't REALLY need it.

If I just change my diet, my symptoms will go away.

I'll cut out all processed foods.

I'll do better at exercising.

I'll just fight through whatever pain I'm having.

I'll take a bunch of vitamins.

I'll talk to my doctor about treating all 40 symptoms individually.

I'll find God. (It seems to work for some people, why not?)

Well, you get the picture.

I don't particularly want yo get my head cut open. I don't want my summer ruined. I don't want my kids to have a dead or disabled mom if something goes wrong.

It sucks that this is the only option.